'AITS BATCH 1 OF 2010'

At last after almost 3months matatapos na ang training. Ang pinakahihintay naming lahat. Parang ang hirap i-detach ung bonding na meron kame ngayon,mas closer na kase ang group at komportable na ang bawat isa, sa isa't isa. Ngunit sa ayaw man namin at sa gusto kailangan namin tanggapin na madedeploy kame in different divisions, hindi namin alam kung sino ang makakasama namin, new people nanaman at panibagong pakikisama nanaman. Sabi nga namin, pwede bang gumawa ng bagong division na kame pa din ang magkakasama?..

Marami na ang mababago:

1. Wala ng sleeping sessions.
2. Wala ng kain ng kain sessions.
3. Wala ng petiks mode.
4. Wala ng review mode.
5. Wala ng exams na whole day mong sinsagutan.
6. Wala ng araw na papasok ka para tumanga ng 1 buong araw.
7. Wala ng tantrums during hands on.
8. Wala ng mga trip na mag-match ng food na babagay sa ketchup.
9. Wala ng asaran mode.
10. Wala ng "Enchong at Keo' na mangungulit, YES!
11. Wala ng Anna, ang pulis ng batch na galing sa ibang planeta
at ang mga virus nya na nakakahawa.
12. Wala ng Carl na hobby ang pag-cocode ng program.
13. Wala ng Joyce, at wala na din si Rey dahil wala na si Joyce.
14. Wala ng Melvs na bumubuhay sa sense of humor ng lahat.
15. Wala ng Tin na tutulong sakin, maghanap ng mga syntax error ko.
16. Wala ng Toi na nakakaintindi sa nararamdaman ko towards programming.
17. Wala ng Mai ang bunso ng batch.
18. Wala L.A. na kasama lagi sa love triangle, (KEO pagkakataon mo na!)
19. Wala ng Chel ang mommy ng batch.
20. Wala na din ako.

Marami akong natutunan during this training. The courage to try. The guts to hold on and believe na kaya ko. Pero I won't make it kung hindi dahil sa tulong ng mga taong sumusuporta at naniniwala saken.

Ang mga former boss ko sa BFB, dahil hinyaan nila akong tanggapin ang opportunity na ito. At sila din ang dahilan kung bakit pinilit kong kayanin ang training. Sayang naman ang binigay nila sa akin na pagkakataon kung hinyaan ko lang ito na mawala diba?.. Sa mga pagkakataon na gusto ko ng bumigay sila ang sandalan ko, ung trust nila saken ang nagtutulak sakin na kumapit. Kung hindi dahil sa kanila wala ako sa training.

Hindi din magiging successful ito kung hindi dahil sa tulong ng batch 1, noong una akala ko hindi ako magtatagal sa group. Bakit?.. Una, ang babata ng mga kasama ko, matatalino, at pakiramdam ko noon isa ang lang gusto nila ang manguna sa training, kaya they think much of theirselves bago ang iba. Which is kabaliktaran ng objectives ko ng magdecide akong pumasok sa training. Simple lang gusto ko nun, pumasa at makatapos sa training, hindi kailanman pumasok sa isip ko na makipag-kumpetensya sa kanila. Dahil siguro I'm matured enough and I'm over sa school life environment. I admit na sobrang bored ako nun sa training, tinatamad, akala ko kase nun tapos na ako sa pagiging estudyante. Pero nung training kailangan kong ibalik ung enthusiasm ko sa pag-aaral. Dahil hindi ako magsu-survive kung hindi ako mag-aaral. Pinilit ko talaga ang sarili ko. At ng simulan kong bumuo ng bond sa kanila, na-proved kong hindi ka naman pala nila iiwan, ng-start talagang magtulungan para pumasa ang lahat.

Halfway ng module, I've decided to quit, kinontak ko talaga ang prof namen to tell that I'm quitting, I'm running out of reasons nung time na yon para mag-quit. Good for me na hindi sya pumayag, at least ngayon patapos na ko sa training. Hindi ako makatulog ng panahon na yon, isa lang kasi ang gusto ko noon, ang mag-quit. But someone told me some lines of encouragement at tumatak talaga yon sa isip ko:

"Quitters never win, how are you supposed to get what you want in life, if you don't go thru it the hard way"..

Which is true talaga, if you dont want to risk, then you dont want it bad enough. Buti nalang pinakinggan ko sya. At ngayon ang sarap sa pakiramdam ng achievements na ito. But 50% of it I owe it to Sir POGS! Dahil binigyan nya ako ng pagkakataon..

Hindi ko alam kung panu ako magpapasalamat sa inyong lahat.

Kay Anna, na matyagang nagwa-walk through sa program ko, kahit sobrang tamad ako dahil sa kanya pinipilit kong magsipag.



Kay Carl, sa lahat ng help sa pagde-debug.



Kay Joyce at Melvs, na source palagi ng program codes ng lahat, thank you guys for not being selfish.


Kay Tin at Toi, na hindi ako iniiwan hangga't hindi ako nakakatapos.


Sila ang madalas tumulong sa akin, I owe it you guys! Thank you!
And to the rest of the batch, sa bondings naten. Thank You! Mami-miss ko kayo. Back to normal na ako. Sana once in a while kahit magkakahiwaly na tayo, minsan lumabas tayo together!


"ONE FOR ALL, ALL FOR ONE, TOGETHER WE STAND!"
"BPI-CSC AITS BATCH 1 OF 2010, LUCKY 13..

"Kaarawan"..

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY?..

One year older...

***So how's the previous year? Is it nice?..

Probably it was nice, although sometimes its tough. I've gone through some emotional crisis. I remember last year was my saddest birthday. No celebration at all. My whole family got depressed and we've been going through a bumpy road last year. HE gave us the hardest test, actually I quitted on HIM, I had a great anger on HIM. For HE let us deminished each other, until we all fall apart. My ultimate birthday wish last year was:

1. To bring back my family.
2. To gave my Mom the courage to hold on.
3. To see her again wearing a bountiful smile.
4. To take my brother away from temptations.
5. To make him realize how stupid he was.
6. To take him back in GOD's hands.
7. To gave my sister in law a peace of mind and happiness.
8. TO gave her another reason to smile.
9. To make her realize she had been my greatest sister and a great daughter in law for my Mom.
10. To gave my niece and nephew a home full of love.

But out of my 10 wishes only 3 of them was granted. But I still hope HE'll gave it all in HIS time.

***How about your work? How was it?..

We'll its nice and great, I had been working with a great people. I was able to learn things I've never think I would. I found new friends. Work was really great, but I had to walk through and wobble to another career thats why I decided to leave them. I am now working with new one, and I think its the best gift HE had given me.

***How about your love life? Was it colorful?..

First and second quarter last year its colorful, but it turns colorless because of some unexpected reasons. But I'm happy, I already get used to it. Acceptance is the key. Now?. I am with a new one. Lucky right?.. And I hope it is him written to be my one.

***How's your relationship with your bestfriend? Was it okay now?..

Sadly it was not, and will forever be that way. I missed her, the way she greeted me on my birthday, the way she made my day a special day. I always thought of our past few years that were okay, on how we made ourselves free everytime our birthday will come, we always have one day to celebrate. But I already accepted that forever is over. And im happy for whatever life she has right now. I had forgiven her and I wish she already forgave me.

One year had gone, time to CELEBRATE A NEW LIFE!
Here I am now, HAPPY! Thank you for the new year!

Thanks to this people who celebrated with me, my first day of my new year!
The undeniable friendship that we have for 10 years now. They made my day so happy!








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" H A P P Y " =)

Happy is a word that describe people in the state of doing something enjoyable and fun, without having to worry of something else. Happy is a word that we often hope people to feel when we see someone for the first time. Happy is a word that often get someone unhappy to feel jealous. I love to see and make people feel happy. I tend to realize that I do and think of others much than i think about myself.

I'm lying if i said i cared about all the people, since i don't really care much. I love to make sure people happy though i don't. i am so emotional, so unperfect, so egoistic. i admit it. Happy can suit me? Nah. whatever.

"C R E D I T S T O A L L T H E M O T H E R S"

I just wan't to greet all the mothers in this balmy world! Happy Mother's Day!

Little by little you give, little by little you sevre. Little by little you love. I will always remember how you sing a lullabye, how you wiped my tiny nose, for helping me tie my sholace. How you pinned my diaper, how you rubbed my bruised elbow. How you hold me through the night when my nose is stuffed with cold. How you thought me the multiplication table. How you keep quiet and hold on to temper when I'm wrong.

Our mother's minutiae will always be remembered, and no such thing can ever replace them nor can compare. No matter how worse or great our life is, they deserve to have a recognition, for the gunpoints they have to walk through.

I was watching a television while doing this little note of recognition for my Mom. Until I found myself crying while watching celebrity Moms who is singing for their little babies. Their song really makes me realize, "the hardship being a mother". How wonderful their love is. I admit that I don't oftenly tell my Mom how much I love her, but I do love her with all my life. I'm not a perfect child, but I can spurt into jail for her. My life is a dsitinctive nature of how great my Mom is. No one can suppress the intimate love they have for us.

They make love visible, tangible and so real!

To all the Moms, I salute you all!

" NEW THING.. "

I really don't try too many food things, I mean I try new dishes but the main ingredients Ive had them. For example, to eat fries with ketchup. But to pair ketchup or make ketchup as your main condiment in every meal? I never had it.

But now I belong with this weird and logical people, we do try new dishes.
The first dish I heard was, to try a Snickers with ketchup. Would you dare to this?
Of course I wont, and I wouldn't. But one of them did try it, and found out it wasn't good.

Second, an ordinary junk food named "SNACKU" with ketchup, I did try it, taste wasn't that strong, and there was no ugly taste about it. It's fine. They said it tasted like one our Filipino food "menudo".

Third was the "eminems" (MnM) chocolate with ketchup, it was not really good, I also tried it, we do all tried it.

From the time that we tried new things, I already adapted this manner and start to think always of having a new thing everytime I ate, the one I tried to look was a "pancit canton" paired with kisses chocolate, I just tried, but it doesn't taste good.

The other thing I saw weird one lunch time, is when Gelo had his "tinolang manok" paired with "toyo and calamansi" maybe it's weird for me but I don't know for others I haven't tried it ever since. Another one is when he put "ketchup and gravy" stir them together, and got it! They also tried "pancit canton with super thin crackers". Every meal, they always wanted to try new things.

They said programmers has a deep logical thinking, I definitely agree with it! We do solve cases in different logic.

But there's one more thing we do have, most of us are WEIRD! We do think beyond ordinary, and beyond normal. I don't know if it is the effect of having been tortured with COBOL the master language of mainframe, but it is still WIERD!

Worse Yet Best..

It's our group monthsary!

It's been a month, one heck of journey that we had, not so easy and not so good. And I'm quite glad that the group took its effort to help each other for the remaining month of training. We will never let anyone to fall out of this horrified room ever again.

Exams are not yet over, and 1 more month to go to freedom. Programming was not really a subject, everyone of us just want to get rid of this crappy COBOL! But we all know we can't. But at least we do have one goal right now "Together we stand, together we fall".

Its real, its logical. I know it is one of a friggin' hot series that we had in our lives, but its one of BEST! Right?..

Happy Monthsary Guys! We can make it! Just work hard and earn big bucks! =)

Over Being Pushed Into You '

I really, really feel great last night, now I can say "I'm over being pushed into you"..


After the diner that we had last night, after 5 months of silence. Last night seems nothing happens months ago, we talked and touched each other just like the old times. But when I got home, I just realize that you already seems nothing to me, that I am happy now and contented.

And I really feel great!

How about you?..